Deeply In Love

Sunday, January 28, 2024

I’m really interested in deliberately cultivating a desired state.  The ability to change one’s own mental and emotional state from an undesired state to a desired state is a skill which I am learning in school and have been practicing on myself for some many months now. State changing is like magic. 
I am particularly curious about creating a state of being deeply in love. That lovey feeling of everything is amazing and floaty and yummy. Creating that state with life and the entire world I live in. If all my experiences and encounters could be experienced with that floaty dopey happy lovey-ness to it then being pulled-over by cops and waiting in long lines wouldn't be so bad. Cause I’m in love with life.  Yes, I do get pulled over by cops. The San Mateo Motorcycle Cops seem to be especially pulley-overy. 

In school we learn to anchor a desired state with a specific step by step protocol called  “anchoring.” The coach helps the client establish a felt sense of that desired state and feel it in their body. Whatever language and imagery or sensations are cultivated in the present using a recent or intense memory of a lived experience.  One can also self-anchor a desired state.

I have been playing with anchoring this deeply in love feeling. The blissy, ecstatic, high vibrational floaty buzzy yum feeling in me. 

In class we’re taught to break state once it has been deeply sensed. Then we distract ourselves into something unrelated. Then we test the anchor that was previously established to see if the anchor can quickly bring us back into the state. 

And I began to wonder how long I could keep this lovely floaty feeling as a baseline state. Can I always be in love?  How long can I stay in love with life? 

So far, about two days. And now I wonder, what if I was always in love with life. If that was my baseline experience which filters all of my other experiences.  I would probably seem like I was on drugs. Though what I realized when I’m in love with life is that I’m actually just extremely present and in the state of NOW.  

I went for a bike ride today on my folding Brompton and enjoyed the sun and clouds and breeze. I noticed a collection of little bugs, flies, insects all stuck to my sweatshirt as I rode. When I took breaks I would let them fly off on their own or assist them with a gentle blow. I explored for a while along the trail and smiled at folks out on their Sunday stroll. The clouds were just amazing today and the water reflecting the sky was so spectacular. To look across the Bay at Mount Diablo, Mount Sutro, SF and Oakland and the San Mateo Bridge. It was so lovely to be in the presence of all of it. And I took a break for handstands since that’s one of my 2024 dedications. That along with this website and blog and the manuscript and school and work and collaborating on the podcast etc. All the things. 

The beautiful thing is that there is time for all the things. And I’m deeply in love with all of it.